Have you ever found your circumstances feeling a little out of control and you’re traveling down a path that you didn’t expect? That’s where I am right now. It seemed one minute there was a suggestion made, next it became an idea, then the thought took root, and before I knew it was happening and coming fast.
I’m not saying that it is a bad thing. I’ve prayed about it, but like so often in my life, I just start running with the changes in my circumstances. I didn’t wait to hear from God. I just assume he’ll keep up with me. Now that I’m committed to this course of action, I take a mental step back and wonder if this is really what the Lord has for me. Did I race ahead of Him? Just because everything was pointing in this direction and it seemed logical, didn’t mean it was God’s will.
This has happened to me so many times in my life I have to wonder if it is really God or is it poor impulse control on my part. The last minute panic is so familiar. Every time I plow ahead with changes in direction in my life, I give a last minute pause, and second guess myself.
Don’t I wish God would give absolute clear direction; hit me with that runaway train, Lord, instead of feeling like I’m just on for the ride, waiting to see the outcome.
Oh well, time to have faith. I’m stepping out of the boat, or off the train. Even though I’m a strong swimmer, or walker, doesn’t mean I have to do this alone. Praise God! I’m keeping my eyes on Jesus. He will keep me in his hands and all will turn out for my good. How do people do life without him?